Insecurities!

{"messages":[{"id":290411995,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"V got up first.. He slowly opened his eyes.. and saw a beautiful innocent man.. laying beside him.. His skin was shining and he looked like such a baby.. V smiled, looking at Jk.. He feels special and very happy, that he is able to love someone like this bunny.. He gently ruffles Jku2019s hair.. the younger nuzzles more in the pillow and cutely scratched his nose.. Jku2019s lips were slightly parted while in deep sleep.. V slowly shifts a little lower and gives Jk a soft peck on his lip.. The younger immediately kisses back in sleep.. but in this moment, something snapped inside v.. the more he looked at Jk.. the more his heart ached.. The elderu2019s heart was pounding uncontrollably.. V clenched his chest.. trying to breath heavily.. He knew what was happening again.. He forgot to compose himself.. He went too deep in love.. V needed to calm.. as his body was now shaking.. He slide down from the bed gently.. walked out of the secret room.."},{"id":290411996,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"He immediately rushed to his room.. and called someone"},{"id":290411997,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"ud83dudcf2 (heavy breathing) Pick me up now"},{"id":290411998,"character_id":5536791,"type":2,"content":"ud83dudcf2 shit again.."},{"id":290411999,"character_id":5536791,"type":2,"content":"ud83dudcf2 I am on my way.. come from the chamber backdoor"},{"id":290412000,"character_id":5536791,"type":2,"content":"(Cuts the call)"},{"id":290412001,"character_id":5536791,"type":2,"content":"(And immediately dials another number)"},{"id":290412002,"character_id":5536791,"type":2,"content":"ud83dudcf2 doctor.. hello.. we need immediate assistance.. he is having his episode"},{"id":290412003,"character_id":5357858,"type":2,"content":"ud83dudcf2 what alright.. alright.. just bring him here asap.. I will prepare everything"},{"id":290412004,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"Hyung sik rushed V.. to the clinic.. the psychiatrist immediately put him in a special ward and started to check his pulses.. After making v breath heavily and calmly.. The psychiatrist gave some medicine to V for his heart.. when v was ready to talk.. they both walked towards her session room"},{"id":290412005,"character_id":5357858,"type":2,"content":"What happened master V.. this time"},{"id":290412006,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"(Slowly) I donu2019t know.. this is the second time, my heart got unconscious looking at my boyfriend"},{"id":290412007,"character_id":5357858,"type":2,"content":"Is it because.. you were overwhelmed with the feeling of love.. or you had a memory"},{"id":290412008,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"(Bite his lip) I feel happy when I look at him.. it is genuine and pure happiness.. I feel everything in that moment as very blessed.. but the flashbacks of my past.. sometime overpowers me"},{"id":290412009,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"As if"},{"id":290412010,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"I am not worthy of this love"},{"id":290412011,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"There is anxiety which makes me feel.. I wouldnu2019t be accepted"},{"id":290412012,"character_id":5357858,"type":2,"content":"Maybe you can talk about your past with him.."},{"id":290412013,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"Sometimes I think about it.. but the fear of him leaving me.. makes me so scared and I just try to fight my emotions then"},{"id":290412014,"character_id":5357858,"type":2,"content":"If he loves you truly.. I think.. he would understand you master v"},{"id":290412015,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"Itu2019s not about that.."},{"id":290412016,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"Itu2019s me.. I feel disgusted on my own self.. itu2019s not about him accepting me.. itu2019s about me accepting myself.. which I havenu2019t"},{"id":290412017,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"Can we end this session now.. I donu2019t want to talk about it"},{"id":290412018,"character_id":5357858,"type":2,"content":"I wonu2019t push you master.. but I still feel.. you need to overcome your past for your love.. and tell him about it.. he might help you in setting yourself free"},{"id":290412019,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"Hmmmm"},{"id":290412020,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"V leaves from the psychiatrist. hyung sik has stayed the entire time with him.. They were in the car.. and hyung sik was taking V back his villa.. when v said"},{"id":290412021,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"Take me to the ocean"},{"id":290412022,"character_id":5536791,"type":2,"content":"Yes master"},{"id":290412023,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"While all this was happening.. on the other side"},{"id":290412024,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"Jk woke up and didnu2019t find his master beside him.. He was upset with this.. so he decided to call his boyfriend.. he dialed the number.. but no response.. he again dialed the number.. still no response.. this suddenly brought the fear of past.. and jk was uncontrollable.. he continued to dial Vu2019s number again and again for nearly 1 hour now.. there was no response.."},{"id":290412025,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"Jku2019s heart was aching badly.. he was shaking in fear.. he got up immediately and ran outside the room.. he searched every corner of the villa.. but his master was not there.. he then ran to the Kim mansion.. by now.. tears are unstoppable in Jku2019s eyes.. He ran inside the Kim mansion crying and shouting Vu2019s name"},{"id":290412026,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"Eomma.. where is master ud83dude2d"},{"id":290412027,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"Appa.. he is not answering my callls.. is he here.. ud83dude2dud83dude2d"},{"id":290412028,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"I am scared.. did he leave me again.. ud83dude2dud83dude2dud83dude2d"},{"id":290412029,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"Both Namjoon and jin started to console Jk.. Namjoon also kept trying Vu2019s number, but it was not reachable now.. Jin has now started to show sign of nervousness.. he also fears that what if V left Jk once again.. Namjoon is worried about his brother.. what has happened to him.. no one knows.."},{"id":290412030,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"Meanwhile.. after sitting for sometime near the ocean.. v decides to visit his fatheru2019s graveyard.. he didnu2019t wanted to talk to anyone.. he just wanted to gather his courage.. after sometime they reached near a graveyard.. v took a bouquet and walked near a grave on which it was written Kim Baekhyun.. V silently sat there and looked at it"},{"id":290412031,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"I miss you father (talking infront of the grave)"},{"id":290412032,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"I am doing fine.. just some little anxiety"},{"id":290412033,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"I have found my love.. I never felt this happy.. itu2019s all because of you.."},{"id":290412034,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"If you didnu2019t protect me that time.. I might have been nothing but a long lost sad story.."},{"id":290412035,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"I wish you could see my bunny... you would have been very proud.. that finally.. there is someone to love me honestly"},{"id":290412036,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"I know.. itu2019s beautiful"},{"id":290412037,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"But father ud83dude22"},{"id":290412038,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"I am scared ud83dude2d"},{"id":290412039,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"I canu2019t breath without him.. and I feel I would hurt him and he would go away from me.."},{"id":290412040,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"I am scared father.. do you think.. he will still love me with my scars"},{"id":290412041,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"I wish you were here.. I miss your warmth.. you always stayed beside me.. thank you father"},{"id":290412042,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"It was night time already.. Jk after many hours of crying.. just slept there silently on the couch of Kim mansion.. the other hyungs were also present there now"},{"id":290412043,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"After past midnight.. V returns home.."},{"id":290412044,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"He was about to walk towards the v villa.. when Jin dragged him from there and brought him to Kim mansion .."},{"id":290412045,"character_id":4158249,"type":2,"content":"WHERE WERE YOU ud83dude21"},{"id":290412046,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"Whatu2019s wrong"},{"id":290412047,"character_id":4158249,"type":2,"content":"WHATu2019s WRONG.. DID YOU FORGET.. YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND.. WHOM YOU LEFT WITHOUT TELLING.. HE HAS BEEN CRYING LIKE A MAD PERSON.. THE ENTIRE TIME.. HE THINKS YOU LEFT HIM.."},{"id":290412048,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"I am sorry (sadly)"},{"id":290412049,"character_id":4158248,"type":2,"content":"(Focused on his brother)"},{"id":290412050,"character_id":4158248,"type":2,"content":"Where did you go taetae"},{"id":290412051,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"At fatheru2019s grave"},{"id":290412052,"character_id":4158248,"type":2,"content":"You should have at least answered our calls.."},{"id":290412053,"character_id":4158249,"type":2,"content":"(About to shout again)"},{"id":290412054,"character_id":4158248,"type":2,"content":"Jinnie.. itu2019s enough.. he is tired.."},{"id":290412055,"character_id":4158249,"type":2,"content":"(Gives death glare to v)"},{"id":290412056,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"I am going to take him with me"},{"id":290412057,"character_id":4158249,"type":2,"content":"No he stays here.. you have hurt him enough"},{"id":290412058,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"(Woke up from the sudden noise)"},{"id":290412059,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"Master ud83eudd7a"},{"id":290412060,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"Wae.. wae.. wae..did you leave me like that ud83dude2dud83dude2d"},{"id":290412061,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"(Opens his arms for a hug) I am sorry bunny.. I had some work"},{"id":290412062,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"(Runs to v and hides in it)"},{"id":290412063,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"I thought you left me ud83dude2dud83dude2dud83dude2d"},{"id":290412064,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"(Tightens his grip and hides his face in Jku2019s neck)"},{"id":290412065,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"I will never leave you love.. trust me"},{"id":290412066,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"(Wipes his face.. in Vu2019s chest and nods as yes)"},{"id":290412067,"character_id":4158249,"type":2,"content":"Please next time before leaving.. think about this idiot.. (irritated because of Jku2019s immediate submission to v)"},{"id":290412068,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"I am sorry hyung"},{"id":290412069,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"(Picks jk in bridal style and leaves from the Kim mansion)"},{"id":290412070,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"V gently puts Jk on the bed and cups his face.. he is sad to see his bunny cry this much.. The youngeru2019s eyes were all swollen"},{"id":290412071,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"Why do you hurt yourself like that ud83eudd7a"},{"id":290412072,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"Look what you have done to yourself"},{"id":290412073,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"I got scared ud83dude22"},{"id":290412074,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"I promise you baby.. I am not going anywhere.. I only will be with you.. (a tear drops from his eyes)"},{"id":290412075,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"That night.. V sat on the bed and stayed just like that.. because Jk slept on his lap like a baby.. V would do anything for his bunny.. only if the younger can see it properly.. itu2019s not Jku2019s fault though, for being so scared.. V is his first love and in past v has left him twice.. in the back of his mind this insecurity will remain.. for jk, v is the only one for whom he breathes for.. and if V disappears again... The younger is scared that he might die"},{"id":290412076,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"Days started to pass peaceful again.. V started to give more attention to Jk after the incident.. He kept the younger with him all the time.."},{"id":290412077,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"The weekend arrived and the hyungs have decided to visit a club.. it has been long time.. since they went partying.. v knew his baby wants to go.. so he decided to join as well.."},{"id":290412078,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"At the club.. everyone was getting drunk, dancing and singing crazily.. Jk was not allowed to drink much because of his recent heart operation.. so he was not drunk enough... v, Namjoon and Jhope were not much drunk as well.."},{"id":290412079,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"But jk danced with his drunk hyungs without resting.. V kept looking at his baby being cute.. The master was definitely whipped.. suddenly.. a girl came near V and sat on his lap.."},{"id":290412080,"character_id":4643697,"type":2,"content":"Wowww.. after long time Kim Taehyung did the courtesy to visit us (plays with Vu2019s shirt)"},{"id":290412081,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"(Takes a sip from his drink) you should get up from my lap now.. I am not the same man like before"},{"id":290412082,"character_id":4643697,"type":2,"content":"Well.. I am the same Natasha.. we can still have fun"},{"id":290412083,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"Suddenly.. she found herself on the floor.. why? Because Jk has just pushed her and Jackson, Jin, Jimin and Yoongi are standing behind Jk .. all giving death glares to Natasha"},{"id":290412084,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"Didnu2019t you hear him.. he said get up ud83dude21"},{"id":290412085,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"(Rolls his eyes)"},{"id":290412086,"character_id":4643697,"type":2,"content":"What the hell is your problem kid.. I am talking to him (annoyed and gets up)"},{"id":290412087,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"I am his boyfriend.. you should ask my permission before even talking to him forget touching"},{"id":290412088,"character_id":4643697,"type":2,"content":"Oh.. so you finally.. managed to be in the list of lovers.. no wonder.. you were so jealous back then"},{"id":290412089,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"(Taken aback from her words) ud83eudd7a"},{"id":290412090,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"(Gets up immediately and slaps Natasha)"},{"id":290412091,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"Donu2019t talk to him like that.."},{"id":290412092,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"(Runs outside)"},{"id":290412093,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"(Runs behind him)"},{"id":290412094,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"Love.. can you slow down.. talk to me please"},{"id":290412095,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"Why are there so many people around you.. ready to rip their clothes off.. am I a list to you.. I donu2019t care about your past.. but wae .. they feel I am just a play thing to you"},{"id":290412096,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"What did you say.."},{"id":290412097,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"DID I EVER TELL YOU.. THAT YOU ARE MY PLAY THING.."},{"id":290412098,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"(Flinches)"},{"id":290412099,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"DONu2019T YOU SEE MY LOVE FOR YOU.. DO YOU THINK.. I NEED TO LIE TO YOU.. ABOUT MY FEELINGS.. I AM SORRY FOR WHAT I DID IN PAST.. BUT DONu2019T COMPARE YOURSELF WITH THEM.. DIDNu2019T, I TELL YOU TO REMEMBER MY LOVE ud83dude21"},{"id":290412100,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"It hurts ud83eudd7a (about to cry)"},{"id":290412101,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"(Immediately hugs him) sssssh.. I am sorry for shouting at you.. but please understand this.. only you have the rights on me and I only love you.."},{"id":290412102,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"Sorry.. my insecurities took control of me"},{"id":290412103,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"Itu2019s fine to have them.. but confront me with your emotions and donu2019t hurt yourself by crying"},{"id":290412104,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"I will continue to make you believe in my love.. even if it takes my entire love"},{"id":290412105,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"(Cups his face) Jeon Jungkook.. I Can only love you.. Please, believe me"},{"id":290412106,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"(Nods) I love you so much"},{"id":290412107,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"Itu2019s an healthy relationship.. when one talks and keeps an open mind.. V is lucky that jk is that such partner.. also because jk is a whipped man for v... hehe.. the younger obviously will love v any day any time.. no matter what situation be there.. I hope V could also see that and get rid of his anxiety.. but as I said.. itu2019s a long process and they have their entire lifetime.. to love and cherish each other.. layer by layer"},{"id":290412108,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"Even though, taekooku2019s relationship had many ups and downs.. but the bond of the two souls.. remained the same... in fact.. they grew stronger and better"},{"id":290412109,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"Jk was very happy and more confident about himself and v continued to shower all his love to the younger.. as if Jk is his crown.. which by the way.. he is"},{"id":290412110,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"One day.."},{"id":290412111,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"V was supposed to come home late.. after a meeting.. so jk decided to visit his hyungs"},{"id":290412112,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"When he entered the living area.. as usual.. his eomma was busy in the kitchen.. but the only thing out of the ordinary was his appa and hyungs forming a circle and discussing something"},{"id":290412113,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"Jk walks towards them with an confuse expression"},{"id":290412114,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"What are you doing hyungs"},{"id":290412115,"character_id":4158251,"type":2,"content":"Oh Kookie my boy.. we are planing your boyfriendu2019s birthday"},{"id":290412116,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"What.. ud83eudd7a"},{"id":290412117,"character_id":4158252,"type":2,"content":"Donu2019t tell me you didnu2019t know.. when is taehyungaahu2019s birthday"},{"id":290412118,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"(Nods as no)"},{"id":290412119,"character_id":4158250,"type":2,"content":"Omo.. donu2019t be sad.. itu2019s fine.. I was not aware of his birthday for months.. I had to found that out through the students file from principal office in uni days.. hehehe.. he is always very quiet of all these things"},{"id":290412120,"character_id":4158248,"type":2,"content":"Come Kookie.. you also join us.."},{"id":290412121,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"(Nods as yes)"},{"id":290412122,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"While everyone was busy discussing.. jk was lost in a deep thought"}]}